I check my email in the morning. You probably do, too. I hadn’t eaten, drank, or taken meds, so I decide to get back to payroll’s email with several mistakes they made which resulted with my losing some pay. They got back to me right away with a, “WTF?” I haven’t responded yet, and I should not have responded then.
My thoughts are intrusive. I remember this girl’s church. It didn’t let women speak, but if you were in a trio that included a man you were allowed to sing. The man changed his mind, they wouldn’t let the girl sing. I actually restrained myself from screaming at my friend and asking her to show me in the Bible where it says to break little girl’s hearts. I screamed (silently) at her today.
I’m sucking down iced coffee, popped an Ativan (takes the edge off) but wanted a bottle of chilled Chablis. I need a good breakfast, to take all my pills and to rest for about an hour before I conquer myself and the day. I have a therapist’s meeting today as well, and I need to prep for that with my ADHD homework. This all annoys me and I’d like to take a break from therapy for a while. I won’t do it.